Tuesday, October 30, 2007

Right vs Wrong

Haben been facing nonsensical clients for sometime and now seems to start again...... can all these ppl spare a thot for us???? Can't they juz try to stand in our shoes and tink abt how will they feel if they are facing the same situation......

Made a big decision last nite..... ..... expected the outcome .... i felt sad too... but juz wanted to fair to all..... juz hope tat tis period will pass fast ..... juz hope i can earn tat understanding.....
juz felt tat i'm becoming more and more emotional and easily influenced thru emotions which i wasnt in the past..... dunno if itz a good thing..... i've made the decision and i juz haf to stand by it.... i cant turn back time neither can i regret even if i do ..... life has to go on.... i juz haf to carry my legs and continue my journey.... study hard and study well ..... Ganbatte ne!!!!


Everyday in life we haf to make lots of tough decision.... it may juz be a very simple thing like deciding btw to eat this or tat, to go here or there ..... but many a times it juz seems so tough .... so tough tat it makes us crack our heads and feel like pulling out our hair...... y issit tat we haf to face decision making everyday, every hr, every min, every sec???? Cant we juz be more decisive ...... i guess the reality is tat we cant.....

Dint sleep well again..... went in to work and felt like sleeping the moment i stepped in ..... eyes feeling so tired and heavy ..... still not recovered from my bad flu yet..... when will it be ok..... i'm gettin impatient.... my nose seems to be fallin off @ the rate i'm blowing my nose..... i'm really so so so tired of everything..... i seriously NEED a holiday a break very badly..... but i cant afford......
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*wishes to dedicate a song .... Akon's "sorry, put the blame on me"

Saturday, October 27, 2007

PaRt Time StuDenT ReaL SooN .....

haf not blog for quite some time coz lazy, busy plus down wif bad flu......

skool is starting on 19th nov ... which is like 3 weeks away .... time really flies... as it gets nearer i'm getting more panicky.... as i noe very well tat itz nto easy to work & study.... esp when i haf lessons 3 times a week.... mon,wed & fri..... hmmz.... all i can pray for is *MOTIVATION* .... (missy arh ... we muz support and motivate each other till we graduate k) Hopefully my brains are still functioning well .... Bought a new Agnes B bag for skool .... a huge bag so i can put my laptop in ..... coming weeks gotta start shopping for stationaries .... and all ready for skool!!! YippEE!!!!!

Abt 2 weeks back.... i had a brush wif tis stupid "lao kuey bu" irritating to the maximum.... called during lunch wanting to speak to bosss.... explained nicely tat itz lunch-time now....... and she says "can i speak to her" ... wad makes her tink tat we'll be having lunch wif boss???? Tatz not the best.... we haf to screen thru all calls.... so i told her boss is not wif us.... so i kindly asked if there is anything i can help her wif and wif regards to wat issue she wants to speak to boss .... and GUESS WAD???? She scolded me saying "Dont be a busybody ... tis is btw me & ur boss.... why do u wan to noe so much!!!" Wad the **** !!!! I'm here trying to be nice and there u are calling me a busybody.... like as if i like to screen calls if i can choose not to.... i was damn pissed!!!! So i told her off "FINE!!! i'll get her to call u DEN!!!" Told boss abt it and she apologise to me.... commented "how nonsensical can all these ppl get" Stupid lao kuey bu!!!!!

My immunity is quite low recently..... getting sick very easily.... was juz down wif flu like last mth... and now i'm down wif another bad attack ..... all i hope is tat it doesnt affect my hearing again.... really freaking out.... if not gotta spend another sum of $$ on medical bill again.....

Been swimming & tanning & sauna-ing for the past abt 1mth every sun..... feeling good as i'm enjoying the sun.... and like to be more tanned .... hope can keep tis consistent as itz my only form of exercise.....

Wednesday, October 10, 2007

SeLf ConTroL~

Been tired and lazy to blog for past weeks... ... was abit upset last week as 1 problem arises after another 1.... haiz!!!! Cant help to tink i'm like a 84 yr-old old woman.... down wif so many illness suddenly!!!! Wad's wrong man???

Left ear was stuck suddenly last week, couldnt hear properly... went to c ENT ... was told to haf some nerve prob.... GOSH!!!! Said tat my nerve was probably injuried after a series of examinations but cant confirm due to wat... most likely is due to my bad flu which hasnt really fully recovered.... I was so upset to hear tat tis MIGHT be a permanent prob for me... which means i gotta wear a hearing aid ... to aid in hearing if it doesnt get well.... really sad news for me... so much wanted to cry it out.... i was totally BLUR after hearing.... too big a news for me... was given a hell lot of meds to take.... therefore gotta be very hardworking taking med on time ...tinking hopefully it helps if not... i will be partial deaf .... SOBZ!!!!! After taking med for 1 week... i'm feeling much better... can hear better but not quite fully yet... hope things juz continues to turn good.... Spent a fair bit on medical bills tis mth.... thou already discounted price ....

Was looking thru my bills and transactions.... kept running thru my head the whole evening... it's HIGH time i should haf some self-discipline & self control on my finances.... been spluring hell lotsa $$ on things tat are not a NEED .... Really gotta constantly remind myself tat i've been spending too much $$ itz really high time i should watch closely wad i'm spending.... Cut down on shopping esp online goods.... I really admit i'm not a good person @ managing finances ... very poor @ it indeed... juz spend and spend... never really bother abt anything else.... cant continue like tis anymore... Really needa cut down on shopping.... Goodness!!!!
* To all m dearest friends please constantly remind me to stop spending on the unnecessary and save $$$ ... Thanks!!!! Would really appreciate ur help!!!! Really need to save $$$ !!!

Ah ma was hospitalised on last thurs nite.... coz she refuses to eat and sleep .... i tink she's feeling depressed utterly .... and also some UTI .... hope she gets well soon ... dun wish to see her suffer like tis ....