But i tot i was strong.... dint weep a tear coz i noe i haf to be strong... if not cutie will cry more hearing me cry. 1st thing tat came to my mind was to tink of ways to cheer cutie up. Wanted to get her a little gift... tot of "Mother Garden" @ Vivo coz i noe cutie loved the rabbit i got her for Xmas... so decided to go there. Met ah boy in the evening and went to Vivo.... searched ard... dint noe wat to get... saw a doggie soft toy... wif the brown patch on 1 eye... looked really cute... tot wanted to get her tat .... but ah boy reminded me tat will it rub salt on her wound... coz she juz lost a dog and now i buy her a doggie toy .... might cause her to be more upset as it might remind her of Cody constantly.... hence, decided not too... got her a rabbit purse instead... itz really cute... hope tat d little purse will cheer her up alittle. Passed her the purse on Sun nite... glad she looked ok and she like the cutie rabbit.
I wasnt as strong as i tot i was.... Mon nite... was reading blog... read cutie's blog abt Cody and my tear juz keep flowing down automatically like a open tap.... juz couldnt control myself.... suddenly i really miss Cody alot alot.... & my heart aches & cried even louder when i read the part where cutie describe wat happened tat morning before they put him to sleep.... Cody juz proves tat he's really a very good & loyal dog towards cutie & family and it juz shows how much he loves them and how much he's gonna miss them. I'm so sad i couldnt be there to see him 1 last chance.... thou itz cruel to put him to sleep but i guess itz d best way out for him since he's suffering. Ah boy was toking to me over the phone when i was reading and when i cried... he got a big shock... he almost rushed down to my place to see if i was ok... oops!! Dint mean it... was really juz very emotional tat nite... I really haf regrets that i couldnt see or cuddle him for juz 1 last time... never did i noe 24th was the last time i saw him and touch him... and last time i could let him lick me on my arms.... Thou i'm closer to Cody only recent few years... but we really dote on each other... i noe he dote on me alot juz like cutie's family dotes on me.... he treats me like his family and i could feel it. I've always love dogs ... but mum dun allow me to rear 1 so i've always regard Cody as my dog... Never will i be able to play wif him, cuddle him, sleep wif him nor hear him bark when i'm @ the door anymore.... tat very nite... i could feel exactly wat cutie muz haf felt worse knowing & witnessing him beening put to sleep.... i really cried for very long tat nite... haben cried like tat for a long long time....
Cody has been a really good & obedient & smart doggie... always comin to the door to welcome me or jumpin to the back of the car to look for me when cutie's dad drove us.... he's always so adorable.... never once did he bite me... he loves to sleep wif me on the mattress whenever i camp over @ cutie's place... loves me to cuddle him... he's really such a darling doggie to haf. He loves chicken wings... comes to us whenever he smells chicken wings... loves to hide under the sofa when he noes we are leaving hse and will need to lock him up.... noes how to do his business in the toilet on the newspaper.... he's juz so adorable....
Thou lots of ppl will miss him.... but i guess the sweet memories of him wif us will slowly erase the pain & sadness we are experiencing now... Cody boy u will be in my memories forever and ever... will miss u forever... Love u !!!!
Backview of Cody boy @ Vanesssa's room.... waiting patiently for some1 to open the door for him.
PS: Haf to admit tat i teared again when i wrote this blog. I knew this would happen coz i really miss Cody!!!!
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